if time could be reversed.

do u think everything is fated? one is fated to meet someone at that particular time. one is fated to be doing something at that particular time. one is fated to be what u are now. well, that means do we still go ard fighting for wad we want? or we are merely just fighting against fate?



i had a reali enjoyable day today. or shld i say just an enjoyable night? well, my day starts like this:

i went to sch for project meeting . and started off doing tt stupid time waster- globus. hmmm. i was late for half an hour. well, i m reali sorry my dear projet mates. millions of apologies. then after, i had dinner... blah blah blah....and finally, it was time to go back.



bus 151 arrived. puisin and me reali happy cuz we din have to wait long before the bus came. however, the bus seems to be in a doubtful condition. the bus uncle took a super long time to stop the bus. den, he spoke on the phone and we overheard the conversation. it seems that temperature was boiling. (I ALSO DON:T KNOW WHAT IS HE SAYING LAH!).. okay, nvm. the most impt thing is tt, the bus is faulty! we can;t board. damn!




thus, we waited for another 151. puisin and me were happily chatting until...........................the silly girl had stomach ache! haha!!! we had no choice but to alight at NUS and we chiong for the toilet. oh man. what a relief!!! haahaa. however, we did not want to leave the NUS campus yet. we wanted very much to explore it and thus we figured our way thru just like finding directions in a maze. we were lost. Totally LOST. haha. or shld we say, we allow ourselves to be lost. cuz none of us want to get home yet. we wanted to get lost in the campus cuz we wanted so much to feel university lives. true university lives-something tt SIM could never give us. never.



under the moon light, we strolled and exchanged gossips and allowed our souls to be part of the NUS team. only to realised, we reached the hostels! oh man. HOSTELS!!!!!! both of us were so excited. perhaps some cute guys just walked past us and we wanted very badly to follow them! hang on! dun think tt we are bimbos! we are not! we are merely being girls mah! i mean, 4 reali cute guys just appeared in front of us out of no where, of course we willl feel kind of excited wad! this is the fault of hormones la. not us!!!




haha.. enuff of the nonsense. the truth is tt we reali wanted to enter the hostels just to see how hostel life is.. puisin asked me if i knew anyone. i said no. i asked her if she knew anyone. she said no. then jiamao appeared just in front of us. and we said YES! haha. so contradicting la! we all knew each other! diow! but he seems to be rushing for time, so we did not bother him much. still, he encouraged us to enter and take a look. so, we pumped in much courage and entered!




we only managed to linger outside but we dun seem to be able to enter into the building. we tried to smuggle ourselves in behing some china ladies. but, our timid and weak hearts, played us out! hehs. we decided we had enuff and shld just leave the place before we get too emotional.



but before tt, pusin and me made a pledge: 210907. 11.20pm. only the 2 of us will know this secrets!




when we are able to leave, we saw jiamao again! he was friendly. and he volunteered to show us ard!!!! wah. we were truly amazed. we felt so excited!!! finally our wish came true!!! hehs. we entered the building and into his dorm:) the lift was messily decorated with some event thingy. it was NUS' buaya week. whereby a male and a female will do something for each other and only to reveal their identity some time later. puisin and mine heart sank. how come we dun have such things in SIM?????? hmm. only if we had this, i wondered who my buaya will be! haha. maybe some ah siao?? oh no. tat will be reali bad.



den we say jiamao's room! it was super nice and clean!!!!! i m so jealous. i think his room is even much cleaner den mine!! hehs. okay. i know i m pretty untidy!!! but,, i m reali busy mah( okay, meishan! stop having excuses! u are simply lazy!) fine. i admit. i m a lazy bum. everything abt hostel life is just damn freaking cool.



now, i m regretting so much.. i realised that i have missed out so much. hmm. am i realii missing out something great?or am i just desiring for something tt i can never get? if i have been hardworking and gotten into NUS and am currently staying in a hostel, will i find such life so cool and desirable? i dun think so! perhaps pple in NUS is jealous of pple in SIM as well? humans are strange! aren;t we?



it was reali an eye opener for me! it was reali an experience for the 2 kukus.



however, one thing is tt i had reali regretted not studying hard enuff. i believe getting into NUS is not a prob given my ability and determination, but i had lost them during my JC years. i spent too much time with HIM. however, i dun think this is a good excuse. there are a lot of pple in this world who can juggle between relationship and studies. can;t i be one as well? haha! i dun think i can. so, the best thing is for me not to engage into any BGR at this moment esp during my final years. okay, back to the topic. though i had regretted not studying hard, i had never regretted being together with him. it weren;t be fair to him if i were to push the blame of getting reali bad results to him. plus, i reali do cherish the times we had been together. is HIm tt gave me those special memories. memories tt gonna stayed for life. memories tt shadowed me everywhere. thank ZH:)



now, i m in SIM. i m doing well, doing fine. i kept telling myself that is good to be a big fish in a small pond den to be a small fish ina big pond. that concept applies to being a not so good vs a good institution. now, i m questioning myself.. do i reali mean it? or it is merely a way of consoleing myself?




well, i guess i shldn;t think so much. cuz sometimes tihings reali happen for a reason andntrying too hard to figure out these reaons will bring u nowhere. so, i shld stop thinking abt it and shld just move on.



ultimately, no one will say anything if i were to do my best! and of course, i know i will do it. so can u PUISIN!!!!:)